"Babe, I know it's soul but could you bottle it up?"

So yesterday I was definitely reminiscing on the past. I have lost a lot of people in my life, and by lost I don't mean they have pasted away I mean they aren't in my life anymore. I used to have like 3 really close friends, and I don't talk to any of them.

Haley.... Well I haven't close with here for maybe 4 or 5 years. I love the girl, but we had lessons to learn on our own. 11 years of being that close doesn't just go away. I used to think that we would never ever be apart. I can be naive. I was disappointed in how our friendship ended.

Mandi, hehe i love that girl to but same deal with her. I feel her progression back into my life, but it's definitely not there yet. Out my really close friends I have known here the least coming in at about 6 years. She was the one I was most protective over which she hated. I learned a very useful lesson from our friendship. You can't protect your friends, you just have to deal with their broken ass when they come back knowing they messed up.

Christina, I really want to get close with her again, I mean she does live only an hour and half away from me. She has got things to sort out in her life. I have known her so long. 11 years as well, but I have known her the longest out of all of them. She is a sister to me for sure. When she moved before 7th grade I was so lost. She grew up without me even knowing and now that we live so close I want to get close again.

For all the people in my life that I have lost I want to say that you all made a big impact in my life and I learned a lesson from each and every person that has come and gone from my life. I wish I didn't have to lose people, but it is a part of life.

Reality you suck. <3